A canvass of life if you ask me to write, you will find love, affections and emotions. I don’t want to paint colors of my mechanical mundane chores of life, I don’t want strokes that carry small fights where I wanted to show my supremacy or my chauvinism, I don’t want to use colors that are not mine. Do I get colored by other people, you bet but still when they get into my colors the effect is different than the color it was looking on their canvass.
My canvas is a depiction of a story that starts from my association of this wonderful humane creation calls female. My world started with less than a year in her womb, my mother, I look for her in every female I get associated with, what a blessing she is, what a message she is and what a lady she is. She does get nuts, I think I got this nature from her, that confirms that she is humane, but in spite of all these she amazes me always, every time she put her hand on my grey hair with her love and affection.
Fire of life should always be lit. The fire is the joy, the love, the message, the attitude, the expression and in life we just stop somewhere, start chasing dreams and forget the nice reality that surrounds us in the form of happiness. I was on my this birthday (Felt it was my teens b’day) walking in a park, with rains coming down, alone, thinking how much is there to enjoy and feel, touch and quietly talk but seldom we do.
Recently attended this marriage of my American friend and his father wrote a wonderful letter that reminded me the meaning of the marriage one more time. To share, to enjoy, to love the rising of sun set, setting of sun, returning of the birds in the evening, looking at the waves in the ocean, walking in the woods and enjoying nature and that too with your partner, a someone whom you can kiss with no strings attached, with as much passion you can pour into when you touch her/his hands.
Watched a Video from Steve Jobs’ ”http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D1R-jKKp3NA“, his speech in one of the graduation ceremonies and how nicely he showed a complete canvass of his life, from the time he started treading his canvass. “Connecting the Dots” as he speaks really made me think the purpose I came into being. The purpose of things happen in my life and the purpose life gets on me, rather I getting on to the life.
The best thing God gave humane is the ability to fall into relationships, enjoy them and take a lot from them. I remember my young days (Believe me they are still passing) when I used to talk to my friends saying “I wanted people to be my kitchen friends.” A right to walk into your kitchen and ask for the food. What a “Adhikar”, what a love, what a feeling and we just loose that purity of relations once we marry with Western life of keeping people away so that they don’t intrude our personal life. I don’t have the facts but this is the society that infringes most when we talk about relationships and look when I grew up, I had neighbors I called them “Bua”, I had neighbors I called them “Jiji” and I had neighbors I called them “Dada”.
We keep so much of grunt, depressive thoughts, and fights for life and here I quote one of my friends “can u imagine even after 12 hours the SUN goes a full circle of Earth and comes back and we still fight with those thoughts that bother us”. I was amazed. Ask a question from you “Are you happy with your married life?” and your answer takes time to think, start working on it. Life is too precious to lose your lovely moments in life and ending up with Uncle and Aunty that are constantly complaining, winning and castigating each other once their kids are gone for the college. We are all made for one another; we are all made for life to live not for life to carry as a burden.
All but one relationship has a limit of enjoyment, pleasure and bliss and there lies a point of “no return”. A concept Air plane uses when they cross oceans that tells the pilot that you have to decide, check your ship as after this point you can’t be back to your origin, the choice you have is to reach the destination. Knowing that you can always make sure you don’t take your relationships where you stop enjoying it and you reach beyond point of no return. So people, my people, save a dime a day and end of the month give a rose to your beloved to show how valuable they are in your life and you love them beyond the limits. The relationship that is exception here is one’s relationship to God, who can be envisioned as any way you can imagine.
I better stop, the site carries my writings, my creativity, and a gift that tells me how was I watered when I grew up through my parents. What were the ingredients put into me when I travelled across the journey in all these past winters, summers and falls? I enjoy them…. I don’t want you to move away from my page ever, wanted to be associated with you always through a thread, no matter how thick or thin it is….
